One Paige

Out of my Hands August 20, 2008

Everything is starting to look up around here.  I had another job interview today, which I’m very excited about.  I have to wait until tomorrow for a call back, but it went really well.  It was at one of the local banks and everyone one was really nice, and down to earth.  My last interview was at a Cadillac dealership and the woman was so stuck up.  I knew instantly that I was no longer interested in the position.  I’m so nervous about getting a call back, I don’t see why I wouldn’t, I have plenty of experience. 

I even met a really nice woman while I was waiting.  She owns a local clothing shop which I can’t wait to visit.  I’ve always wanted to own my own shop, and why not clothing..I know a lot about it.  Just recently I had been thinking about how much I love fashion and interior design and why I never thought about going to school for it.  I don’t know If I could handle changing my major again, it was so draining the first time around.  I am really happy as a human services major.  I don’t know where it is going to take me, but I’m okay with a little spontaneity.  Before that, I wasn’t happy with school, but human services is something I’m familiar with and at the same time I am learning something new everyday.  I’m disappointed that I won’t be going to school this semester, but some things are out of my control.  When I have a better job I can afford to go back full time.

For the rest of this week and on into next week I don’t have to think about the job I’m trying to leave; I’ll be on vacation kickin’ it by the lake.  It’s so awkward seeing my co-workers everyday knowing I’ll be leaving them soon.  Of course I haven’t told them yet and I won’t until I turn in my two weeks.  Now, whenever I walk into work I feel like I am holding a sign the reads “I know something you don’t know!”  I’m worried that everyone can see right through me and it can’t be difficult, just look at my productivity…it’s way down.  All I can think about is getting a new job.  I hate it, but I’ll just have to wait and see what happens.

Summer Fun July 30, 2008

I can’t believe my last posting was in May and It’s almost August. This summer has flown by way to fast. When I was a kid I always felt like they just dragged on because my family and I never did anything fun, but now that I’m an adult my days by the pool are limited and disappear in the wind. I haven’t done much this summer, besides work, so I’m hoping to make up for it in August. Maybe a little summer fun with my little sis or some extra days by the pool. Anything just to say I did something this summer and to get a little color to my skin so I don’t glow in the dark anymore.

In June I got to see some family I hadn’t seen in at least seven or eight years, maybe more. It was a really nice get together. I was worried how much everyone had grown or changed and lost touch, but I didn’t miss a beat with all of my cousins. Nothing changed, we are still like kids again when you get us in the same room. This time we did what the adults do and exchanged contact info because our parents don’t live with us to say cousin so and so broke their arm again, oh so and so is getting married again. I made up the scenario, but it was really different to be around everyone all grown up.

Speaking of grown ups, my birthday is just around the corner. I was nervous and serious about it at first, but it’s no big thing now. I’m really excited actually. I haven’t decided how I’m going to celebrate because it’s not one of those milestone ages where everyone else gets all excited, but I would still like to do something fun and get my immediate family together. I know they like to have celebrations anyway.

I’d love to be celebrating a new job right now. I have been looking off and on since April, but I think I’ve been too picky. So, last week I put some deep thought in it and decided what I really want to do and what types of companies I see myself working at. It’s so much easier and I can be less picky, I didn’t lower my standards…just opened my eyes a little. My resume is all fixed up too. Now, I just have to wait for some calls back and I really hope that happens. My current job is okay, but it’s not very professional and management is a little wishy washy, it doesn’t help that we’re not making budget and hours are being cut. I think I’m trying to convince myself that it’s just time to take a step in another direction and change is okay.

Mom’s Day May 12, 2008

Yesterday was Mother’s Day and I was so excited to get to see my mom. I don’t see her as often as I’d like now that I’m on my own. Growing up, every holiday was an opportunity for celebration and we’d always get together at Grandma’s for barbeque, but then there was this huge gap in years where we really didn’t do that. My day started with lounging around Mom’s house talking and reminiscing for hours with my kid sister about all the crazy things our mom has been there for. If you had to label my sister and I, hands down I was a handful and well..she never gave mom too many surprises. If mom gave us both the same task, I would always look for a different way of doing things and if I didn’t stay busy..watch out.

Yesterday was one of those special days where we got to take that short drive over to Grandma’s, of course for the best hamburgers and hot dogs in Texas. Oh, and the potato salad…MMM! I didn’t think I was going to get to enjoy these moments yesterday because I was supposed to work, but luckily I got out of that at the last minute. The look on my grandma’s face when I walked in was priceless. I could never sneak much passed her, so being able to surprise her felt great. My grandma means the world to our family. If it wasn’t for her, my single mother and aunt wouldn’t have been able to work the ridiculously late hours to provide for my cousins and myself. She was there to pick us up from school, feed us dinner, and sometimes tuck us in for bed. She saw every illness and ailment and kissed so many boo-boos too. She is such a smart and independent woman and I love that.

My First Blog April 16, 2008

I’m so excited to finally have my own online blog.  I had some help from my boyfriend to set this one up..just the silly computer stuff that I don’t know about, but the rest is all me :D.  So, that would leave the writing part I guess?  lol.  I love writing so much and I haven’t done it in so long.  I hate keeping up with a journal because I’m afraid of who might find it and read it, so I’d rather share things that are on my mind and this way I can hear how other people relate.  I’m still in the process of figuring out this whole thing and I hope to write something a couple of times each week.